Wednesday, 26 March 2008

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    By The Beatles
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    I made some extra cash at work today; tonight i spent it on milk and toilet paper. There's a fantastic new coat i'm dying to own but i really need to save to pay for new tires. Every month i hand over a hefty chunk of my paycheck for rent.... and i watch as my bank account battles valiantly to stay afloat in this churning sea that some like to call "reality".

    I personally don't like to call it that. It makes me feel trapped and without options. Just another helpless consumer, driven by needs born from a temporal society.

    I've realize i'm using "I" alot in this post. I wonder if i should do something about it.

    Tonight I drove home with a moon at my side so bright i felt sure i could turn off my headlights and still see the road. My jeep became a sports-car, shifting effortlessly around each turn, unhindered by the usual Subauru that inherently knows just when to pull in front of me on Fall Creek Rd, shuffling along 10 mph under speed limit. A trio of great songs the soundtrack to this ultimate driving experience held me under a spell of silence, wonder, and awe. And i remember i really am living a dream, every day a wild west show set in one of the most incredible valleys in the country. I have roommates that never lack in entertainment and won't allow me to wallow in pity. People i love on a little peninsula far away that miss me. A jeep that's paid for, money for gas, and a new set of Rossies to go with my ski pass.  

    And HOPE. A copious future brimming with ambitions and such a lot of mystery. 

    I'm trying to grow with the change; to stay abreast of the trouble spots that like to pop up. But i feel like, though change often comes slowly, at times it comes on me so quickly, it's so subtle i hardly know where it began and where it ends. It feels like a pregnancy... (but not). Only in that once it begins it must run it's course and a few long months can bring irrevocable change. I want to live my life in constant awareness.

     To hear more about the days in the lives of the wondering check out my roomies new blog at www.xanga.com/nidarab 

     

Comments (5)

  • mingus76

    Well I'm glad you're coming to visit the people on that peninsula far away because I don't travel out that way too often (well, actually never but this could be the year!). Maybe we can make your stay so enjoyable that you'll decide to stay. Hmmm Florida or .... where are you again?  Ha ha jk. Well I gotta go back to "work" before some steals my couch.

  • the_kristen

    i guess ur post inspired my thinking to what i wrote on my xanga. ya monday i was at a coffee shop, with GOOD fraps, and well, i settled for a cheaper drink. made me alittle sad bc i dont get to coffee shops often (not many locally around here) and i tried saving some pennies. ah life is good

  • nidarab

    so i was wondering how all your friends were finding me on xanga, then i popped over to your page and saw the link you posted, ha! your blogs are oh so inspiring, and it makes me want to stop working and just blog! thanks for the new obsession :) love you!
  • best_babe

    thank you so much. that really does mean a lot to hear that. i'm exceptionally happy so I'm glad you think we're an exceptionally wonderful couple :) i love reading your posts by the way. they seem to make me think...not sure if that's good or not :)
  • grandpas_gurl

    hey lovely! you've been coming to mind recently...'bout time to sit down and chat over coffee again, don't ya think?! ;) hope your summer is off to a smashing start, i can imagine you are busy dreaming of the next enchanting trip...or the next wild adventure to be involved in! :) keep living with passion, it's contagious! *hugs*

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